The information science students and staff had the upper hands on this thing in my opinion. We can work from anywhere as long as we can access the data in the project disk or the computing clusters via SSH. The only problem I had was the working space in my room is just too cramped. I live in a 3*4 room, but to be honest, my table is just too full to work on. Moreover, my chair is just slightly too low for my table making my hand position uncomfortable.
I will submit my last paper into Interspeech this year and soon I have to prepare for my thesis. The deadline for the table of contents is at the beginning of July. Do you know what's worse? I want to do a journal as the final blow. It sounds overkill and has a high chance of rejection but my sensei highly recommends it.
Lately, I feel so lazy to cook anything. I'm hungry but I don't want to do anything about it. Usually, I just go back to sleep or just take simple food/sweet drinks like cereal or honey, or even plain bread. What makes me lazy? I don't even know. Nothing really changes my mood or something.
This dire situation makes me wonder how long until the recession officially announced or at least appeared in the news. I've never been this anxious about finding a job. I only thought one thing when I came here; To change my life and live properly. I don't like making excuses, but I really can't find a job that really suits me back then. Right when I found one here, this virus strikes.
I can only think what if that day, my supervisor let me continue to PhD. At least I got the scholarship for another 3 years and now I don't really have to think about job-hunting. Maybe I will not survive the PhD anyway or even after another 3 years, the situation is still not really good either. Who knows?
But for now. I can do nothing. Literally nothing besides enjoying the last 4 months, and the upcoming thesis defense + the tight deadlines towards it. I'm 10 billion percent fucked up.
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