Fourth Month in Japan [My First Summer]

July, 2018
This month began with heavy rains and strong winds which indicates the summer is coming. Whenever I saw how many people said that summer in Japan is really hot, I was always thinking that they were exaggerating since I spent 24 years in tropical area. But now that I am here, the temperature easily reaches 42 degree Celsius at 2 PM. In some areas like Fukuoka, it was 46 degree Celsius two days ago. Believe me, this is just the beginning. Next month, the weather will be much hotter than this month. But no worries, I still have lab to save myself and be a little more productive.

This month was crazy. After the big-boss scolded me last month, I lost all my confidence to face the entrance exam on 14th. I mean, all lab members even know that I was under pressure. Some of the gave me advice and told me some FAQ during the interview. They told me to just relax. No, I couldn't.

In the examination day, I went to the lab early (around 7 or so), and did my research a little bit until the time. There were 2 sessions, math presentation session and research proposal interview session. The math was easy I should say, but because I was so nervous, I could finish nothing in time. I became more and more nervous. I felt like I'm a failure and nothing I can do now but to accept my fate as a failure. During the second session, the questions were mostly about my past topic. Big-boss was also there but he didn't ask much. I think he even already gave the score before I came into the room.

After all of those, I went back to the lab, took the EEG recording 'chamber' key and locked myself until afternoon. I have reached the point where I can't stand to think about it anymore. I prayed to God and continue working on my experiment to distract myself.

Almost all the people I consulted with came asking how was the exam. I answered them with the same answer 'Not good. I don't think they will let me pass.'. Even the lab secretary came by herself just to ask how was the exam. It was like that almost everyday until the result announced. My number is there. It was miracle. I thank God for that.

Okay. That's all from this month.