Third Month in Japan

Okay, this is a bit too early. But there are so many things happened and I just can't hold it up anymore. So, where should I begin...

There are 2 interns from my country came into the lab for the next three months. One is in her last semester of master degree, and the other one is still in her third year of college. Nothing much I can tell about them but they brought snacks, sweet soy sauce, and chili sauces. I really appreciate the sweet soy sauce. Now I can cook properly.

One of them were asking to go shopping for groceries but didn't know the way, so I accompany her to Aeon because I also had things to buy. I borrowed my female Vietnamese friend's bike for her. On the way back from there, she stopped midway and I waited for several minutes. It was strange that she should not be too far behind, so I went back only to find her squatting on the roadside. She needed to poo (lol). So I took her to my dorm and let her do her things in the guest toilet on the first floor.

While she was in the toilet, I went to pick our bike that we left. I took my bike first and park it. When I was about to took her bike, my bike fell and the cherry tomatoes scattered out. Right after that, a car came and I lost my lamp, and half of the tomatoes.

Speaking about my research, my sensei was asking me to write a paper for next month which is impossible because during the first month I just changed the topic, the first two weeks of the second month I learn linux and the GPU cluster in our lab. Then I learnt about the project built by my senior. The code itself is neat, but I always have difficulties is continuing someone else's work. That's why until the early of the third month I can only report that I only tried several things. Not much, and it doesn't mean I can meddle in his code too much.

And then, things got worse. My slippers snapped, I spent 10k yen as deposit money for a new bike that I'm still uncertain if I can use it well (or have time to use it). My prof told my sensei that my performance is bad and if I could not give any result in the next meeting, then I can't get into the master degree this year which means I will have to wait another year or change school. WHICH I DON'T WANT TO! NEVER!

The standards sure is high. They are used to pick only interns who can produce paper within 3 months. Yes. you read it right. Fuckin' 3 months. I don't even know how they do it. There must be something that I'm missing.

God, if you read this, please forgive me. I'm just a sinner. I need your help going through all these. I don't want to go home as loser or have to change school (too much hassle). I just want to get accepted to the degree, do a good research, and then graduated. That's all for now. I can't do it on my own. I need help.