August

7 Aug 2022
Last week I somehow went back to my howetown. Spent a week with my parents. One thing I noticed is that I no longer complained that much about the pollutions and the noises. That whole week I really enjoyed the serenity of my parent's house. Although I should admit that it is quite hot there, but the air is incomparable with this God-forsaken capital.

Being in a state that I hate really reset my perspective from Japan. The air quality and cleanliness of Japan is something I long for quite a while now. I still remember how much I complained about the situation I was. But I know deep inside that I cannot be like this forever. The longer I can accept the current situation, the longer it will take for something better to come. So I learn a lot. And when I just started to accept things as they are, my life gradually gets better.

Everything is temporary, so enjoy whatever.

There's a backstory of my homecoming. So basically I still had a cough last week, but it was still manageable. Thus, I asked whether I could already come to the office, and lucky me they told me to wait until the cough is finished. So I took that chance and went back to my parent's house. 

There I got the chance to ride my real bike in the morning. I thought last year that I didn't want to take that bike to the capital because I was afraid if it is stolen. But if that bike is staying in the garage unused, it is not serving its purpose. So I decided to send that bike to the capital so that I can use it here. 

18 Aug 2022

Yesterday I had dinner together with some of the neighbors. One of them asked me to hangout next week hiking. Well, I never really hike before (I don't like walking that much, but let's try for once).

There are some things I really want to learn in life, and that's not about tech anymore. I want to learn how to survive, how to live. Perhaps that's the reason why I am really into philosophy recently and whenever I see lakes, hills, rivers, cycling, fishing, all those non-competitive stuffs, I want to live like that. To be honest with myself, I feel alive the most when I learn something new. Like skiing, I didn't feel discouraged by failing hundreds of times. I miss that feeling.

22 Aug 2022

Really pissed off by the mosque sound this morning. In fact, I woke up unwillingly by their loud voice. I was dreamt about my previous lab. But this time it is a little bit strange. The lab was not the same like it was. It is just the same inside but the outside seemed as if it was moved to another point. From the window I saw that the road at the hill behind the dorm was being worked on. I don't know what for, but that area was filled with water. Then I saw a blue NMax-like motor bike fell from someone's balcony and I think the owner jumped in together with some other kids. There was a tunnel to pass the water to the other side but apparently I realized the area nearby the tunnel was deeper than the rest.

After that I slept again. This time I saw another dream. I went to Yoshino with my parents, however the Yoshino I saw in my dream was not mountain. It was a beach. We spent the night in a small inn. After storing our stuffs, we cam down to the beach just relaxing. That's when I noticed that there were Livy with some others, who is apparently famous as influencer here and there was also my high school friend who often played basketball with me. He took the chance and got his picture together with Livy. I also wanted to do the same. Livy agreed, but my phone was too old and slow thus I failed to get one. Back into the inn, I got angry with my parents why they couldn't wait for me to take the photo. That's how I woke up disappointed.