I Made A New Friend!!

Two days ago I went to Kobe to visit my friend who I met from Japanese course class in my hometown. She changed a lot (in a positive way). I still remember how she was during the first several months after she arrived last year, now she has grown into a proper adult with all her Japanese studies and part-time jobs. Not to mention her Japanese skill; I'm very proud of her.

Earlier this month, another student from the Japanese course class came replacing my friend's roommate. She has a friend, a cheerful Aussie-NZ lady who also happen to come at the same period. I saw her from my friend's IG story and somehow I like her. So I planned to go to Kobe on Saturday, and cook something to impress this girl. After that, I will go for Easter mass on the way back home.

I cooked black pepper chicken and potato salad which are my friend's request. Finally I met this pretty lady. Gosh, she talked a lot! Maybe it is just how she is. I learnt that she just broke up with her previous partner several weeks after she arrived in Japan. She yields to be a voice actress (seiyuu) here. She likes anime (so do her brothers) and tries hard to get a grip on the dialects (and of course the Japanese itself).

We walked to a park nearby around 9pm and she talked about how NZ is, parts of her childhood, and how was her school days. After that we went back to my friend's place where I supposed to sleep but we found out there were a lot of tiny cockroaches on the floor! So I decided to crash on this NZ lady's place. I thought I would be sleeping on the floor but something even better happened!

We shared the bed. That was the first time for me spending the whole night sleeping beside a girl who I just met several hours earlier! I woke up every two hours because I couldn't help myself getting excited. Yes I like her, to be honest. Moreover I am really thankful for her to accept me that time.

No. We didn't have sex. I told her what I thought in the morning and she said this: "One night stand only makes me as a woman feel empty even more. It feels like you are loved which is the thing you want, but in fact it is just physical."

That sentence I will always remember. Although to be honest I never had one-night-stand before and never will, that give me a stronger reason not to do it.

I have been thinking about this for a while...
In case eventually we come to a point of realization that we like each other, can I accept her past? Or should I let this go?