Winter 2017 Anime List

1. Violet Evergarden
2. Mahou Tsukai no Yome
3. Hakumei to Mikochi
4. Citrus
5. 25-sai no Joshikousei
6. Gakuen Babysitters
7. Takunomi.
8. Miira no Kaikata
9. Saiki Kusuo no Ψ-nan 2nd Season
10. Kokkoku
11. Karakai Jouzu no Takagi-san
12. Koi wa Ameagari no You ni
13. 3-gatsu no Lion 2nd Season
14. Slow Start
15. .
16. Chuunibyou demo Koi ga Shitai! Take on Me
17. Net-juu no Susume Special
18. Hajimete no Gal OVA

Fall 2017 Anime List

1. 3-Gatsu no Lion 2
2. Blend S
3. Boku no Kanojo ga Majime Sugiru Shojo Bitch na Ken
4. Dies Irae
5. Imouto sae Ireba Ii.
6. trending_upItsudatte Bokura no Koi wa 10cm datta
7. Just Because!
8. Net-juu no Susume
9.  
10. Omiai Aite wa Oshiego, Tsuyoki na, Mondaiji
11. Osake wa Fuufu ni Natte Kara
12.  
13. Haikara-san ga Tooru Movie
14.  
15. ROAD TO YOU: Kimi e to Tsuzuku Michi

What Are Important Lessons I Learned From College Up To A Year Of Employment

Okay, before I start my rant, this post is totally subjective and please don't ask me about my data source since those mostly come from my experiences so far. I also have no intention to discredit anyone or any place especially academia.

Let us begin.

So I just graduated a year ago with a bachelor degree in Computer Science along with more than a thousand students around the world. Looking back to my first year, I was wondering what subjects should I put my focus into. Well, why? Because not all of those were interesting. Some are junks and only possible to be understood by practice, not theory. So, in the end, I just focused on Calculus and Linear Algebra. Yes, you read it right. Only those two subjects. The rest are either memorizing shits or ideal lies. (As I knew already what is really happening already).

As things went smoothly for me, what I really did was clogging my brain a night before the exam and flushing those shits right after. That's all. I didn't care about anything but my scores. I didn't care about how those theories works especially entrepreneurship and character building.

I didn't care about those, why? Because those are impractical and the situation is so different than those books (or slides taught). OMG, I don't want to go near those subjects anymore. Now, as for the technical subjects; Programming and such. In my opinion, the real things were OOP (Object Oriented Programming) and Software Engineering. Why? Because no matter what program or project you want to do, planning is the most critical part. You have to be able to count the man-days and the cost of resources (including time, people, and sometimes commercial libraries or frameworks). You have to be able to understand the client's need from A to Z and discuss it to clarify that there will be no more changes during the production.

That being said, before I continue my rant;

Dear respected clients, please understand that giving surprises like changing a flow or adding a feature into the project scares our programmers the most and you neither want to prolong the deadline nor pay a little bit more for the mess you are making. Therefore, please restrain from doing so.

Rant continues;

Now I have given you the picture of what's happening. Do you think handling and analyzing those are taught in college? Not in my case. I only taught to draw diagrams and blahblahblah. Honestly, those are not so bad, but really, it was lacking. Things like Database Architecture and System Analysis and Design should be the core of the major. Not programming. A nine-year-old girl can learn to write a program within a week. We, as college students should be able to analyze and design manageable programs or projects.

And I think things like Character Building should not be in the syllabus. Those are practical and it is impossible to learn those just by reading the book. Geez. Just a waste of our parents money and time. In my country, however, things like Religion become a mandatory subject and if you failed those, you can't pass to the higher class. One thing I hate the most was I was told that if I can't write cursive letters properly, I couldn't pass the class. What kind of nonsense it is!

To conclude my rant, I will close this post with some advices which I hope helps you to learn what you actually need.

1. For the moment, focus on things you can't learn anywhere else. (listening skills, managerial skills, communication skills, negotiating skills, any softskills you thing you are lacking or trending hardskills)
2. If you are not in the college yet, just be good at mandatory subjects as it will decide your graduation, ain't it?
3. Please free your mind from irrelevant things which are impractical or of no use in your near future (set your vision first).
4. If you can't escape the system, play along nicely. But never ever give in.
5. For things that you can learn anytime-anywhere (such as programming, drawing, etc.), please, I beg you dear younger generations, learn and polish those skills you love. You have much free time than I do. 
6. If you just learn to code, don't bother about the structure or how to code cleanly. Focus on the problem solving. Don't forget that the use is to solve real world problems. But remember you need to maintain your code, you'll get the idea of clean-code soon after.
7. For you employers, stop looking for someone who are good at everything. You need someone to cooperate since you need someone to deal with thing you don't want to / cannot do. And don't be too stingy or micromanaging.
8. Never pick a job for the money. Are you sacrificing your health for an extra zero in your account? Don't be such a fool. Your health is your best friend. Eat well, sleep well, be happy.
9. 3 things that might be a sign for a good job. You love it, You can do it, The payment exceeds your basic needs.
10. Never forget people helped you in the past, and forget all your good deeds to the others.

Summer 2017 Anime List

1. Owarimonogatari(2017) | 2nd Season
2. New Game!! 
3. Fate/Apocrypha
4. Hajimete no Gal
5. Koi to Uso
6. Netsuzou TRap
7. Issekai wa Smartphone no Tomo ni
8. Gamers
9. Tsurezure Children
10. Aho Girl
11. Hitorijime My Hero
12. Youkoso Jitsuryoku Shijou Shugi no Kyoushitsu e 
13. Nora to Oujo to Noraneko Heart
14. Youkai Apartment no Yuuga na Nichijou
15. Musashino!
16. Skirt no Naka wa Kedamono Deshita
17. Sagrada Reset
19. Enmusubi no Youko-chan
20. Ikemen Sengoku: Toki wo Kakeru ga Koi wa Hajimaranai
21. Konbini Kareshi
22. 
    
23. Kono Subarashii Sekai ni Shukufuku wo! 2 OVA
24. To Love-Ru: Trouble - Darkness OVA
25. 
    
26. Fate/kaleid liner Prisma☆Illya Movie: Sekka no Chikai
27. Seitokai Yakuindomo Movie
28. Kizumonogatari III: Reiketsu-hen
29. KanColle Movie
30. Ao Oni The Animation (Movie)
31. Just Because
32. 
    
33. Kimi no Koe wo Todoketai
34. A-Channel: Nabe wo Tabeyou
35. Suki ni Naru Sono Shunkan wo. Kokuhaku Jikkou Iinkai
36. Omiai Aite wa Oshiego, Tsuyoki na, Mondaiji

There She Goes...

It has been a while since I write about myself here. Well, she went for Kyoto to pursue her language study April 5th. What can I do? I can't follow her anyway. And truthfully, I don't know where I should go next. Either finding a new better paid job or just stay here in case I don't get the scholarship. That's the only way. And why should I choose Japan over another country in Europe like Germany or Holland or even UK? (I'd like to put Canada into my list but little do I know about that).

First of all, I don't really remember feeling lost like this. Well, if I'm not mistaken, I was being in this state only once and this one is the worst. Being born as in an mediocre Asian family and a 'developing' country, makes my parents should think hard with my father's income and aunt-forced-non-working mom. But it's okay, magically we managed to live up until this moment.

But let me tell you, I was confused whether to go to for acceleration class that speeds up my middle-school year by only 2 years and also pursuing 2 years of accelerated high-school. But then I thought, why should I go with it? What are the benefits? Faster to get a job? Well, frankly speaking, if I got into that school maybe I will never become what I am now. I will be confused in high-school of where should I pursue my bachelor degree. What do I like? What should I do?

But sooner or later that confusion come to me. As an employee, do I happy with my choice? Could I aim higher? Why should I stuck here with people who don't even care about what can I do and treated the way they treat anyone? Why don't anyone understands my need?

I'm not paid for doing your thing. I want to do something and get paid from it. I don't know what should I do now. So I change my view and look for a master degree (some people also recommend me to do so). But this girl I met during mid-college year went to Japan already and preparing for her master degree by studying their language. She got a better job than mine and during that she became so busy and I felt ditched. 

I think it is my ego to keep something for myself. But deep inside, I question myself whether I want to go for a master degree. All my life has been so easy and if I look back, I don't even need all those things I wanted. But why now? Why I am feeling so lost and can't be thankful for what I have?

Spring 2017 Anime List

Not that much this season either... Shikaaaashiiii !!!! Detective Conan Movie 21: Deep Red Love Letter is out this season! *yay*

Anyway, the list for this season is as following:

1. Room Mate: One Room Side M
2. Atom: The Beginning
3. Hinako Note
4. Uchouten Kazoku 2
5. Souryo to Majiwaru Shikiyoku no Yoru ni
6. Oushitsu Kyoushi Haine
7. Tsugumomo
8. Natsume Yuujinchou Roku
9. Sakura Quest
10. Alice to Zouroku
11. Renai Boukun
12. Shuumatsu Nani Shitemasu ka? Isogashii desu ka? Sukutte Moratte Ii desu ka?
13. Ani ni Tsukeru Kusuri wa Nai!
14. Kabukibu!
15. Sakurada Reset
16. Eromanga-sensei
17. Rokudenashi Majutsu Koushi to Akashic Records
18. Saenai Heroine no Sodatekata ♭
19. Dungeon ni Deai wo Motomeru no wa Machigatteiru Darou ka Gaiden: Sword Oratoria

Rainy Season

Uh, hum... Hello, it's me again. Greetings from my room. It is a rainy season. Each dawn it will rain hard, during the day it sometimes pours a little, and heavy downpour during the night. Ah, it is the day again. Valentine's day. I hope it rains a lot. No, I have no bad ideas about the 14th of February, I am glad that this event exists because of the choco and sweets.
13th February night, I tried to talk to her again. She said that her feeling is neutralized towards me. How bad could it be? Yes, I can't think clearly and hardly accept that fact. I had never been like this before. I knew it happened months before and the factors behind. It is like a nightmare for me. I randomly awaken at night. Slight headache and teary eyed. Yes, I'm not making things up or exaggerating. It has been like this since that night.
Valentine's day came and spend alone because I have nobody to spend it with, not even a call, or a meaningful chat. If I could see the chats from years ago, I think I'd warn myself back then to avoid this one.
15th of February, a day of major election, a national holiday. I feel so lonely. Couldn't stand it, went to the office. It was empty, but I feel my inner feelings echoing in the room so I went back and forth to the restroom to clear my mind. Luckily I made it through the day. The whole day was sunny but it was raining in the evening. In the end I'm the one who is losing. I'm not playing victim. I know I was wrong and such. But girls will always look for someone she could depend on, no? Mature, responsible, and supporting. What can she expect from someone like me? I'm childish, vulnerable, emotional, cloudy minded, and support? How can I support anyone?
I don't know. I wish I have someone to talk to. I wish she stays the same. But it is impossible, right? I disappointed her. I'm not a man she deserves. It hurts me the most to be ignored and answered half-heartedly. This one sided feeling is killing me. Do you think that there is someone who is so busy that she doesn't even has a mindful thought about someone she cares about? Even at the lunch time she doesn't chat. Prioritizing her job above everything. Go home very late like crazy. Why? Just why? Why you do that? So that you have a reason to ignore me? Why are you doing that to your job that you are going to leave. Why you can't give me the same attention? Is it because the people there? How come you just treat me like this? How can you do this easily? How? Tell me so that I can do the same. This pain is killing me. How can you sleep soundly and do things like that? Tell me how. It is so unfair.

Ten Days and A Year Ago...

Holla, greetings from the other side of the lonely room. Hell yeah, I am surprised that I could still make it this far. So, what's up with the title? Well, it was the time when the local media called my thesis partner and asked for an interview. After those, a bunch of the other local medias are coming to us like crazy. Oh well, neither I'm saying this is bad or something nor like it so much that I want to get on the screen forever. It all ends when each of us got a job.

Talking about job and such, which would you prefer? A slow-paced job with more thinking rather than doing such as planning and learning something new everyday (because you have nothing good to do anymore) or,,, a job where your skills and energy are squeezed out but in the office only (with higher wage of course)? Honestly, I thought the first one was better. But now I realized that it is not that good. Of course, the freedom to think and do whatever I like is a great blessing. But being in that place for too long makes you become a frog in a shell. Why?? As for me, such a lax place is not a place for people like me. It is a place for elders. I am still young and full of ideas. I'm not supposed to be there. I need challenges and stimuli to do better and better. Unless you have it right inside your soul from the start.

Ten days and a year ago was a great time. Not that very great, but better than now. Really. Relationship-wise and anything. I think my mom is right. Nobody would like to spend their time being around someone childish and clingy. As a matter of fact, this is my karma too I guess. And as a man I have to man-up and have a great vision of future, clear plans and milestones, own a house, and enough savings to sustain an emergency cases.

What about my graduate plans? Well, it is hard to find a professor who has the same research interest (many in general, but not in the specific area I'm interested in) and a scholarship. Anyone knows a professor who has an interest with the mind of locked-in syndrome patient?