Ah, the paper I submitted last July just got rejected while my friend who helped me writing the manuscript got accepted. Well, I saved a lot of hassle but at the same time I feel my confidence shattered into pieces. I will just take this as a lesson and a reminder to be humble.
Saturday, I went to my aunt's house to take the groceries I needed for the following week. I went back to my place in the next day. In the middle of the return trip, I met a group of roadies. As an opportunist, I tailed them so that I can save a bit of my energy (the slip stream, babe).
I feel like my life is shit lately. Tight deadlines, too many things to do.
22 Sept
The students asked me to sing a song. well, I saw potentials in them. one of them asked me about a topic to bring for UI/UX competition. Gave him some ideas. He won the competition. 3rd place, but I am so happy for him. To think that I still can feel this kind of emotion really put me into tears. As I feel I am dehumanized daily.
Volunteering to a big crowdsourcing project. Actually, I've been invited months before my friend told me that she is contributing also. Nice change of pace. Happy to code again. However, I don't know why I started this toxic competition within myself, that I should be more in everything compared to her.
Class project deadline. Copyright form. WHY THE FUCK DOES A UNIVERSITY NEEDS A BUNCH OF COPYRIGHT FORMS FROM STUDENT PROJECTS EVERY FUCKING YEAR? WHY?!
Why can't you make PERFORMANCE METRICS which does not depend on the other's free will? Especially the students. Can you stop doing that? Who the fuck created this rule and metric? You can go fuck yourself. Really. Fuck off.
