Covid situation gets better. More people allocated at the new campus. As an introvert, I don't like this. Last week, somehow I got allergy reaction. Fever, inflamed throat, rashes, tiny blisters around neck. Duh. I don't even remember what I ate. Perhaps the chocolate cookie?
German?
I read a paper published in 2016 years before I decided to go to Japan and now I sort of want to approach that professor who (most likely) supervise that paper. I don't know why, but during my years in Japan I met her twice. The first one was the first author of the paper himself delivering a keynote speech, the second one was the professor, and lastly she was the moderator of my oral session.
Currently she is going to Singapore to give another keynote speech as well as I know that there is another professor in Singapore who often collaborate with her. I plan to join the conference in person as Singapore is not that far and pretty much fit the budget (thanks low-income country discount).
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I ended up not joining that conference. It require me to pay like 375 SGD and a credit card. I don't have the later, plus my passport died already. Calculating all the costs and hassles just for that one, I don't think it worth that much. I sent her an email but she has not responded over two weeks. I guess I can just come back sometime. For now, I'll just try someone else.
I am getting less and less of that random dream of Japan. Maybe because I am keeping myself busy on something else and thinking less of Japan. But every post of Japan still takes me back. Some random snapshots of familiar places really brings the vibe again. I realize something is changing in me, I started to forget several details of the places I've been. I don't want to say that it is a good sign or that I am starting to heal. Losing something I hold dearly is never a nice thing.
Wednesday, I met a girl. B3, a lab assistant who will also plan to graduate next semester. I hope I can meet her again. I promise myself not to fall, but I feel so lonely. Accidentally met her on the way to campus. I had to take something, and she had to teach a class. We met again on the way back. It was raining. I could've walked her back but I choose to know her further so we had a talk. I enjoyed it. Finally the rain stopped and we went back. She and her dreams to be a business owner. I hope she get what she wants.
A week after that I went to the campus on Friday. I should've been working from home but all of the sudden, there was a problem with the electricity in my area and it forced me to go to the campus. When I arrived at the campus I just realized that I left my laptop at the other campus and locked the desk so that no one can open it. So I took the bus and found out that that desk already occupied by someone else. So I took my laptop and returned the key.
On my way back I was onboard with a girl, another lab assistant but from finance major. She was still in B2. I talked to her since we were the only passengers of that bus that time. From what she told me, I can see that she lives alone (at her parent's other house), has two younger siblings, and doesn't go out very often. She even told me that she takes care of her life all by herself. Cooking, cleaning, grocery shopping. I was so stunned by her independent living. I always feel like this is something that I am looking for. Miss independent. I want to know her more.
