These 2 months were hellish. Started teaching regularly, I dropped my research altogether, almost did nothing except reading some self-supervised papers and fixing my own paper (it is just rubbish, I'm not proud of it). I don't really remember what I did in October beside that I was officially moved to another campus.
Speaking of the new campus, it is so quiet, not so many people there and the room is smaller. On the flipside, I got my own cubical, thus I can flexibly put my own stuffs and possibly sleep whenever I want to without getting anxious if someone is coming. The truth is that many of us take a short nap. Such a good workplace.
October, unremarkable.
Then November came and there they come. The mid-term exam in my campus where I work at starts in November and you know what, I started to realize that maybe this is the time for me to resume my research. In addition, they suddenly dropped the bomb. I had to teach for 4 hours at a private high-school which luckily was online, be the moderator of a local conference parallel session, presented my paper, and came to the campus during the weekend because I was one of the competition committee. Fuck it.
Well, I don't want to complain too much about it. Complaining doesn't change anything. I can disagree all the way but I choose just to stay put. About working, I started to think that this is a general thing that happens everywhere. You do what you are tasked for and that's it. I don't think that I am obliged to do more than that simply because there is no use. Better do it for my personal gain.
After the exam, came the scoring session. I'm currently teaching three classes, most of them are doing okay although I always feel like I am not teaching them the way I should. Hahahaha, but who cares? The students only care about their score anyway. Fortunately, the exam was a take-home type so they got their time to browse the internet and copy other's work, which are virtually impossible had they done it onsite like it used to.
Anyway, I don't find any point in giving the students bad grades unless they submit nothing or show no effort in their answer.
Lost all the contacts in my Line account mid-November since I logged in to an emulator using the same email and phone number and voila. All of the contacts are gone. Lucky that some of my Japanese friends are on instagram so that when I posted that, some of them re-added my account. You know, the first one who added me back was my college friend who is currently working in SG. The second one was her who I guess has my phone number. Then followed by one girl I met near my graduation when I was in Japan. Then my Japanese crush added my account back. Following that, another previous lab-mate added me back and add my account to the group where all the alumni are in.
Lately, I have developed an interest in philosophy. The wisdom of the humankind throughout the centuries written by philosophers, bibles, and the prophets. Somewhat it makes me think and re-evaluate the things I want to achieve, asking myself what am I currently doing and repurpose my life.
