Earlier this month I made one new friend. She is from Indonesia but has been in Japan for the past 3 years. I met her at 7/11 near Aeon Tomigaoka. That day, I just went back from my short solo trip to Mt. Wakakusa to release my stress due to my pre-defense presentation.
At first I saw her as a Malay/Indonesian withdrawing money from the ATM at the corner. I proceeded to bu some bread since I hadn't had anything that day except water. Then after I paid those at the cashier I went out to eat some. Then she also came out to ride her bike when she realized that her rear tire has completely gone flat. Judging by her reaction I can finally conclude that she is an Indonesian.
She then walked away and it was like around 10pm or something. There was no bike shops or even Daiso was open. The only option she had was just to leave it there and walk home (campus dorm). Why campus dorm? There's nobody would take that route unless they want to go to the campus. I followed her before she had gone too far and asked what happened (though I knew already and I spoke to her in English). So long story short she intended to leave her bike there and get it fixed on the next day before she go to her a part-time job. So, I offered to help her fix the bike and finally we went back to campus walking.
So that's how it was started.
~Fin~
I've been ranting about my situation a lot in recent posts. Yes, it is true. Ain't it humane? Aren't we all like that? Especially when things are not happening the way we expect it to be. Maybe some of you possess that special ability to accept the reality faster than I do.
So I reflected some things these days since it is holiday (22-23 July + weekend = 4 days off. Yay). The thesis was submitted for official review last Wednesday, so I have some time to stop doing anything and just go on rest-mode. There are 3 points that I realized:
- What seems good does not always give you the lesson you need.
- God still helps you even in the worst situation.
- Nothing lasts forever.
If I remember why I choose my current lab group, it is simply because I didn't like how I was treated in the previous one. In my current group I received better treatment, to the extent that my supervisor doesn't even care anymore. Basically, nobody complained about my technical ability (maybe it is because of academic research?) but most of the time I received comment regarding my writing and presentation.
How did I fail the Go/No-go presentation was mostly caused by my inability to compose my thoughts and take the listeners along with the presentation. Big thanks to my supervisor who didn't give comments or like 'This is how you should do it.'. Nope. He didn't say anything about that. About the journal? Nah, I don't want to do it anymore. No time and basically no motivation for that anymore. Not that I cannot, but I just have no reason to do so. Another reason is that usually the journal would take a year at least to be finally published. But it also depends on the reviewers. If the reviewers asked for any additional analysis, then it would be hard for me to fulfill those.
You see, until this day, I tried to stay positive and keep reminding myself that everything happened for a reason. But it is very hard. I can' believe the sweet 2.5 years is gonna be over soon. Worse, I graduated in this pandemic situation with no job secured. Who the fuck would like to hire someone like me? How could I even save this much ? Hey hey, life is not all about money, no? Just take anything you can get and stay low. Nope. That's not the problem here. I know how to stay low, and in face I've been living like a beggar all these time so that I can save a lot. Those who continue for the next 3 years amid the pandemic will have at least 6M yen in their account by the time they graduate. Me? Only half. I won't nag about it, in fact, I am grateful. Truly.
Meaning that, if I can find a suitable job where I could save at least as much as I could save right now, it would be enough.
Speaking about moving out. Shit, I hate to talk about this. But every time I look out my veranda and see the greens, I look at the bike that I used to travel. I am wondering whether I still can do the same in my country. It is so sad that my country at has nothing like Japan. The cleanliness especially.
Well, at least let's close with something a little positive. My Interspeech paper got accepted. Great, isn't it?
