I think I'm in love.
There is this one new student in my study group (my lab has many study groups). I like her smile, she is only about 150cm and wears glasses with short hair. I don't see the physical appearance that much but it is her smile that brightens my day. Every time I see her I feel like I can do better and capable to do a lot of things. Man, this drives me crazy.
I know her English is not good (really meh!), but what's this. I know for sure she is not the type who wants to live outside this country. I don't even have any will to learn Japanese so far. I learn bit by bit every day and mostly forget all the things I've learned. Lol.
But her smile is enough.
However, I should say that I will not approach her. I'll just let her be. I don't want any emotional problems to happen during my study. I know that I'm clearly lonely and depressed, but no. I can't be attached to anything right now.
The first week in August I went with my study-group-mates to my supervisor's parent in-law's apartment to see fireworks over lake Biwa. We went from the campus by bus to Takanohara station. Before that, I planned to go there by bike but my friend said to go together because there was an accident somewhere along the line and the train service might be suspended for an unknown period. Okay, there is nothing much to say here but I was so stupid and touched my disc brake rotor right after braking from high speed. It is hot enough to burn my skin.
We arrived at the apartment around 7PM. There were a lot of people gathering there. I was afraid that it would be as crowded as in Kobe last year, but actually, we were not affected by those crowds because we were on the 7th floor of the apartment building. It was so magnificent. The colors, shape, transitions, and especially the sound! I can feel every 'ka-boom!' pushing my chest. My eyes were so mesmerized by what I saw that night. Last but not least, her fireworks-illuminated face.
My supervisor's nephew also came with his parents. He was still like 3-4 years old and he was really cute and playful! I am wondering if I can play with mine too, but meh, very different personality. We got back without my supervisor because he went to Osaka (while his wife stayed at her parent's house). We arrived at the campus' station on the last train! I don't know why that time I was so excited riding on the last train.
On the third week of August, the school had the Obon holiday for one whole week. Since I have no plan during this holiday and I can work better without anyone around, I decided to use one week in advance to collect EEG data to be processed during the Obon holiday. After the holiday, it will be the time for classification and holy fuck, I did nothing except the pre-analysis until this post is written.
I also have to prepare the presentation for an upcoming conference in Austria. Meanwhile, if it is possible I also have a paper deadline on October 21st. A week after Interspeech next month I will have to attend a boring summer camp (yearly event by my lab). I don't know why do we have to go all the way to that half-assed place, with not-so-good view while there are a lot of better places around Biwako. WHY.
The first week in August I went with my study-group-mates to my supervisor's parent in-law's apartment to see fireworks over lake Biwa. We went from the campus by bus to Takanohara station. Before that, I planned to go there by bike but my friend said to go together because there was an accident somewhere along the line and the train service might be suspended for an unknown period. Okay, there is nothing much to say here but I was so stupid and touched my disc brake rotor right after braking from high speed. It is hot enough to burn my skin.
We arrived at the apartment around 7PM. There were a lot of people gathering there. I was afraid that it would be as crowded as in Kobe last year, but actually, we were not affected by those crowds because we were on the 7th floor of the apartment building. It was so magnificent. The colors, shape, transitions, and especially the sound! I can feel every 'ka-boom!' pushing my chest. My eyes were so mesmerized by what I saw that night. Last but not least, her fireworks-illuminated face.
My supervisor's nephew also came with his parents. He was still like 3-4 years old and he was really cute and playful! I am wondering if I can play with mine too, but meh, very different personality. We got back without my supervisor because he went to Osaka (while his wife stayed at her parent's house). We arrived at the campus' station on the last train! I don't know why that time I was so excited riding on the last train.
On the third week of August, the school had the Obon holiday for one whole week. Since I have no plan during this holiday and I can work better without anyone around, I decided to use one week in advance to collect EEG data to be processed during the Obon holiday. After the holiday, it will be the time for classification and holy fuck, I did nothing except the pre-analysis until this post is written.
I also have to prepare the presentation for an upcoming conference in Austria. Meanwhile, if it is possible I also have a paper deadline on October 21st. A week after Interspeech next month I will have to attend a boring summer camp (yearly event by my lab). I don't know why do we have to go all the way to that half-assed place, with not-so-good view while there are a lot of better places around Biwako. WHY.
